His WILL

So happy we don't have school on Sundays'.  I really wanted to go to church today, BUT me and my sister car went to car heaven.  To make the long story short we got into a car wreck.  Thank the Lord that we are alright.  That is really a blessing.  It felt like the scariest thing of my life.

This past week I'm been stressed out from, practice, tests, and schoolwork. Practice I couldn't focus, my body felt like crap and I wanted to give up.  The test that I took I felt horrible and couldn't concentrate and thought I failed.  Schoolwork, nothing could get accomplished that whole week.  Then I became paranoid.  Thought people and everything was out to hurt me.  I thought to myself I will never become a paranoid psychopathic.  Boy was I wrong.  

It seem like there was no one I could talk to about this.  Who could relate, who could understand the horrible pain I was going through.  I could't talk to my sister, she was already going through enough and my friends they were having problems of there own.  I didn't want to feel like a burden on anyone.  I'm the type of person who helps people, and when I'm in need for help it's hard for me to except it.  Sometimes it is okay for someone to help.  That is what I keep telling myself.  I'm getting better each day, becoming stronger and wiser.

When Friday came around I really heard a voice, speaking to me, and that voice told me it was going to be alright.  Everything is going to be alright.  And do you know who that voice was.  I think it was God.  I truly think he was trying to tell me something.  He was there all along.  He wants me to understand HE is in the drivers seat and I need to take the passenger side and let HIM lead me to where his WILL is for me.

You never know what the future holds but God knows and it your destiny to pursue his WILL for you.

The funny thing about this is in Bible study we we're talking about God is in the drivers seat and it didn't hit me until Friday.  WoW he is soooo cool!!!!