Sunday, November 13, 2011


So happy we don't have school on Sundays'.  I really wanted to go to church today, BUT me and my sister car went to car heaven.  To make the long story short we got into a car wreck.  Thank the Lord that we are alright.  That is really a blessing.  It felt like the scariest thing of my life.

This past week I'm been stressed out from, practice, tests, and schoolwork. Practice I couldn't focus, my body felt like crap and I wanted to give up.  The test that I took I felt horrible and couldn't concentrate and thought I failed.  Schoolwork, nothing could get accomplished that whole week.  Then I became paranoid.  Thought people and everything was out to hurt me.  I thought to myself I will never become a paranoid psychopathic.  Boy was I wrong.  

It seem like there was no one I could talk to about this.  Who could relate, who could understand the horrible pain I was going through.  I could't talk to my sister, she was already going through enough and my friends they were having problems of there own.  I didn't want to feel like a burden on anyone.  I'm the type of person who helps people, and when I'm in need for help it's hard for me to except it.  Sometimes it is okay for someone to help.  That is what I keep telling myself.  I'm getting better each day, becoming stronger and wiser.

When Friday came around I really heard a voice, speaking to me, and that voice told me it was going to be alright.  Everything is going to be alright.  And do you know who that voice was.  I think it was God.  I truly think he was trying to tell me something.  He was there all along.  He wants me to understand HE is in the drivers seat and I need to take the passenger side and let HIM lead me to where his WILL is for me.

You never know what the future holds but God knows and it your destiny to pursue his WILL for you.

The funny thing about this is in Bible study we we're talking about God is in the drivers seat and it didn't hit me until Friday.  WoW he is soooo cool!!!!

Tuesday, November 1, 2011

Me and my daddy

Today has been a great day already.  I feel like I can talk to my daddy just about anything.  Today we're on the phone talking about the bible.  I just feel soo blessed to have parents that are saved and educate their children on the bible. Curiosity was all over the phone.  My ear was tuned in listening while my daddy tell me things I never understood and how I can apply it to my everyday life.  One thing we were talking about was Moses.  Since the Ten Commandments is one of my daddy favorite movies  he watched it billions of times.  So of course Moses spoke to the people his self.  So the question was, in the bible it says that Moses asked Aaron to speak to the people.  Soo why did Aaron speak to the people instead of Moses.  Come to find out Moses had a studdering problem (trouble with his speech)(Exodus 4:10-16) and Aaron was one of the ones that could understand him.  I never knew that.  Its crazy how a movie can twist and turn different scriptures in the bible. A lot of things I have questions about and I am determine to get the answer!!!!!  The Bible is a wonderful book and millions of stories and questions.  Everyone should take time out a read it.  It might take you a while but at least try!!!!!